conceit on humility.. how far is self love from pride... I think many of us take too much pride in humility.. we have strict values and we condem ourselves.. having high stardards which we ourselves dont seem to meet.. one of these strict valeues is humility, but i feel conceit is hiden in that somewhere.. very subtle...
humility is overrated. many of these values also are inherited and may not make sense in todays world .. and we need to see them for what they are.
One famous one for me is being business minded, making contacts all against value. being street smart is also a no no. no showoff and no frills.. is it good in todays world? money- my father thinks being rich is a crime, middle class is the best. consciously I dont agree, but I prefer sleeper class to AC,bike to car...small car to big car..hidden value.
I felt a lil stupid( felt I was being too concieted) blessing a couple that were fighting near sankey tank, I just said ( n my mind offcourse) may god bless u wiht peace :D :) yeah I was in good mood then I reasoned I should feel stupid for feeling stupid, I am instrument of god. then? Its not too much to bless anyone. god has infitine capacity and being his instrument I can do infinite good, this doensot mean I am thinking too much of myself. What ever.
[Reading myself write about all this god and stuff is embarassing even for myself but when its in my mind it may as well be in writing :)]
Virtue of honesty being used for hurting.. I used to be like a child I used honesty not necessarily for hurting but without caring..I also use honesty at times to hurt. then a good excuse is I am telling the truth. Sometimes honest knowing it will hurt. Its also one of my values.. being left brained- I interpreted it like be honest regardless of feelings. even tho my father keeps saying you should be wisely honest, it didnt penetrate the thik skull. Master choa as a very simple and nice way of putting thigs which make it so crystal clear to me.. loving kindsness preceeds honestly.. ashte..
I feel greatful towards him when i read his books i like his simlicity and different - more practicle way of putting things .. becuase he is an engineer and a business man.
still some ammount of resistance is there before I become absolutely devoted.. but now I can understand how these women feel so much love for the guru..
also I still feel.. err I dont have guru when i read about guru in the books :-$
Susi came into mylife and introduced me into all these spritual things louise hay, power of now and pranic healing. she was really instrumental in me becomeng spritual... it feels like it was kind of meant to be.
life is like that.. oppurtunities keep opening up stay open keep closing .. based on our state of mind, we see them or we dont.. she herself is not using all these oppurtunities she opened for me.
I dont understand powerful evil people[from Pranic healing/esoteric perspective]... hitler? so damn poewrful.charismatic but evil. The teachings shared so far is not revealing anything bout these evildoers.. how much -ve karma he must have amassed by all that.. but he also helped lot of people burn up their -ve karmas really rapidly.. :) was he sent for that purpose? fallen angel? :D
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there may be explanation for powerful evil people opening of 12th chakra when they are not ready . every aspect of the person is expanded .. It magnifies all the seeds in ur personality. If there was a minor evil trait, it becomes really exaggerated. even the evil. hitler is probably like that?
Talking about loving kindness - when I am rude to people.. like saying car kaliyalva? or what is this- your house is like this to my mum.. is it ok to be rude to people to inspire them? like calling V hanger probably made him go to gym , but he proably doesnot like me for that... I should think of better ways of insriring? couple of inspriations I take credit for... swimming S. yoga mom, bloging 3li.. engineering viki and prabodh and reshma... ashte? :-$ ok..inspiring Susi to take up theater isnt working- she;ll be really good at it.
Roadside thought:
my friend wrote about talking to oneself being sign of madness and that may be lack of volume is the distingusihing factor...I think i sometimes cross the line ... I read once about a old lady who used always sing. everyone appriciated her upbeat nature, someone asked her what she sings about - she said she has a habit of talking to herself and if she did talk to herself people would think she is mad so she started talking to herself in a singing tone :) time to do that I guess :D
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