perfect earth

I m seeing Expanse and some other Space movies/Series. 

Domes, Black Skys, no water... One person born and bought up on Mars in Expanse talks about ocean. He is thinking how wonderful it must be to have so much water that it forms an Ocean. How wonderful to have no domes, you can walk freely. Air water all free! Wow that hit home!

What we have now on earth... its so precious. I m trying to live my life without caring for now - Plastics, Climate change, over consumption, pesticides, fertilisers, Forest loss, extinctions.. Oh Hell! I m going to live for another 50 years Max may be? why should I care!? 

I didn't feel like this, but I felt frustrated. People mocking Climate change, and everyone carrying on as if no shit is happening. Why shud only I care? I felt like that and then decided to not care.

I m sitting and I can see Blue Skies outside, Plants trees birds insects .  free Oxygen to breath, water, every damn thing we need to live is there ready made!  So easy. We live in a perfect world,  What could beat 3 billion years of adjusting to an environment? 

People are dreaming of settling on the moon and mars, We cant even take care of what we have here and we think we will conquer the galaxy .... 

I dont kill spiders

Ya , The best way to make your house looks its worst is to have cobwebs all over! LoL I know!

They eat flies and sometimes catch cockroaches. I feel they are awesome and catch lot of harmful insects. I saw how one of them caught a huge moth, like 3 times it size mid air, Spider probably had some floating strands which caught the moth, The moth didnt have a chance. Not that moth is harmful. I m just admiring the skill of spiders. I like them :-) They don't scare me. I feel like let them be, in one corner its fine. 

Same with mushroom in toilet. LOL! That created a huge outrage in the office. 

This is why I don't have Friends ! 

And may be you should read this and come back and be my friend ;-)  

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/25499718-children-of-time#

climbing up a rock, climbing down into a clear stream, dipping face in ice cold water, walking bare foot on cold cold grass and on spikey stones. placid clear lake, huge green mountains, fog, mist and rain.
temple in the middle of the stream, pine wood tree god, growing in between rocks in really strong current. The spirit of the stream :-)
wood bridges, black slugs, ferns.
in mother natures lap, feeling whole and connected. <3 br="" nbsp="">

my heart goes mmm.. contd

http://mystic-babe.blogspot.co.uk/2011/02/my-heart-goes-mmm-i-hate-that-song-but.html

moss - I love green velvette moss
terrariums- do u know they are called fairy gardens? :)
aquariums
huge glass bottles ( I mean huge.. like more than foot tall) to make terrariums and aquariums ( without fish tho)
colored bottles - even normal wine bottles I like, should grow plants in them.. never succeded in growing plants in them tho.
bonsai
miniature doll houses
tiny paintings
very detailed tiny carvings( In Japanese are called netsuke, not really netsuke are beads but they are  tiny and intricately carved )
sketch books, scrap books ( Vijju auntie's home science scrap book was my favourite book ever)

I walk alone

The most surprising part is how natural it feels. holidaying alone I thought would be awakward but it wasn't. So natural.. so normal. I realise I have done it many many times but havent named it as such thats all.. may all those 2 day train journeys in India - If u enjoyed yourself on those I think u can count on enjoying urself alone anywhere :) and those official trips.
Free, thats the first thing I felt and peace. and Yupieee!I did it kinda feeling :-) as if its a big deal! but may be it is :-) ..but there is a slight fear that I m turning(?!?:P) into this anti social loner, real fear is that I m liking it :-)
Hah! I want to hug the place...bubbles bursting in my heart!:-) I love the sea! I think I also love the fact that I did this :) I want to dissolve into the sea and sink into the sand...
funny I feel like I am getting away from a close friend when I leave this place.. I linger on and on and on on the beach.. its getting cold and hungry.. ah!but I love this! I dont want to go..
I go to the waves to wash my shoes and then leave but stay on and then back on the sand just 5 more minutes.. ntill the birds stop singing.. may be visit all those silly sand things people have done one mroe time before I leave..
the softest sand and the gentle waves..crystal clear water...the fading light..I want to roll in the sand and rub my back in sand like a doggy but then I guess I have not gone that crazy yet.. I refrain sadly..
I finally get up and leave.. my stomach is very persuasive ..

BTW what do u do with beauty? seeing it is not enough, photographing it..  I get this Arrgh! I want to ..! feeling when I see and feel beauty! some how I want to immerse into it? blend into it, hug it,  dip into it and get it all over me, through me.....

like my life depends on it..

Was watching Nat Geo - Frozen planet, when I was down with cold. Bison herb being chased by wolves. Just 2 wolves. The bison are really big, but they keep running. Wolves try to catch the last one in the herd but that one is too big. so they let it go and chose an younger one. The herd runs on. The young bison is being torn apart by the wolves as it runs. The bison is also  feisty,  It turns around and gores one the wolves, the male runs away. The female keeps at it,(probably has pups to feed). tearing at the bison. Bison throws the wolf up in the air like a rag doll.  Now both are bloody,  both are tired, both are going to die. Both are fighting for life. If she doesnot eat, she will die anyway, so she doesnot care if she is gored half to death. For bison anyway there is no option than to fight. How desperate life is! every moment of their life, it is life or death.
I m sitting here taking off from my work, sniffing.. if I was that wolf, Id starve to death, If I was that bison, I would be torn and eaten.Sick and unwell like this, one day sick means death in the wild. but us? .. its so easy for us...Its not fair. I mean I felt for a second that we are not alive at all! how alive those animals must feel, danger threatening right around the corner every second of  life. I wanted that!! That kind of motivation to work at just being alive!
I recollect the previous day training, I m always the last in running, everyone in my class is fitter than me. so? It does not matter at all.. Its after all a class! but if there were wolves behind us? Would I say these Brits are fitter-more meat,better bones  and just stay at the back? How I would have trained then? would I ever be at the back of the class? Would I ever  lack motivation for exercising then?
To do something in my life, like my life depends on it!? how would it feel? It would feel so invigorating!!!!! no?!

bob cat
black red butterfly
tiny sparrow with red crest
myna(? I guess) with a red cherry in mouth
steam engine! :-) puffing under the bridge! was it rainy day so I saw the puffing?
parrots..
wet grass
empty green fields
hmmm....
dingy rainy weather ,drizzling and grey...but still bliss .. I dono!
mind is really a monkey.. it just goes on roller coaster rides just for fun!!!

bliss continues... day three! yesterday It was long shadows and slant golden sun rays... looked like a picture out of a novel.... hmmmm...I feel like I am floating a few feet above my head! Err should I jinx it by writing like this, then again roller coaster can go up and down no matter what! so I wont bother being worried about it going down, because it will.. Today I hand fed geese! ye!!! :-) thanks to the moms who feed these guys bread, I guess they've become quite bold. come and demand me for food.. They ate all prawns from my prawn rice! One was bold enough to pick food off my hand :) :-} :-} thats a wide grin! One day i'll feed sparrows out of my hand ,like that guy in Regents park. Were those just sparrows or hummingbirds as well?? I saw few fly by without landing on this hand! crazy man really, I dono how he got them to trust him so much!
edit: Day four rainbow! :-) 

summer slipping away

why spoil the moment by trying to hold on?
savour what is, now.. why think of if it will be tomorrow and worry
why think  why it was not there yesterday and cry?
What ever happy/sad will pass.. thats what life is like.. a flowing river.

 I know all this but the first signs of red on the trees worrying me. winter is coming .. Its a long way away.. but I want to hold on to summer ...
I bladed about how spring was so wonderful because of difficult winter and everything.... but still I want summer to last for ever :-(
Silly me.

The thought of winter in summer should keep us grounded (instead of worry)and the thought of summer in winter should cheer us by giving hope(instead of longing). 

When god closes a door he opens a window...

Sunny day - sleeping on grass and reading in the sun! Priceless!  Its almost addictive ... unfortunately this whole week, Its sunny when I am in the tube, I keep dreaming of going and reading a book in the park but as soon as I get to my station, its cloudy :-(

Saturday also started off cloudy, rainy infact.. but afternoon, the Sky cleared up - beautiful sun and blue skies :-) Yuppie! I forgot lunch and the weather forecast, I put on sunscreen, threw the umbrella away  and off to the park I went, with my book and cherries. :D 

Ok! u guessed it.. :-D soon its cloudy, 5 mins of book reading.. sky turning completely dark grey , I wont  let this affect my rare optimism ! no no no! and then  rain  in another 5  :-) .  What  kind of  really unusual bout of optimism made me sit in the park till this point, that too without umbrella?.. Sunscreen and everything  too!! LOL!  Grrrr... walking back and midway a small clearing opens up in the sky and sun peeps out.. mocking me!! come back and read that book eh? no way! grrr... always coming out to mock me!! Big Tease! and Oh BTW u cant lie down in the grass anyway, after rains, Its all Wet! and muddy! grrr.. Anyway I walk over this bridge still grumbling at the sun..  and guess what? :-)

Beautiful big fat rainbow!! just over the brigde! :-D wow wow wow!!! My first rainbow in London really!! :-D Wow!! I feel really sheepish now ! Thank you sun..:-$, and ...err... sorry for grumbling...:-D so sweet of the sun to come out and make a rainbow for me :-) Thank you ! Thank you! Thank you! :-) 

words...
Tranquility - turquoise lake among emerald mountains...small ripples deep lake windless stillness...

this is the image that comes up in the mind...searched for tranquility on google images many images that turned up were like this too..

peace - white

calm - white

serene -blue

tranquil - turquoise (because the words start similarly?) how different is serene from tranquil really?)

love - pink white gold

beauty - gold purple pink

life - green
music...

lonley shepherd - high mountains with dark green think forest a clearing a person standing and an eagle flying.. the camera angle is as if the eagle is seeing the person in the clearing then person becomes small and eagle is flying among mountains snow + rich dark green thick forests.

Om mani padme hum - snow covered Himalayas... peace... aerial view...sometimes ground level with colorful bald smiling children/monks(?) in red, brown wooden square houses...
Western classical music - Tom and Jerry

... some sunny day

Aase ye Dukhake mula? Says Buddha..

But I have to agree with Rehman ( may be Mani ratnam?) more... Chiina china aasai…

I want to I want to I want to…

I love the "I want to do this!!" Feeling! I actually can measure how happy I am at any point of time by  counting how many things I want to do..

I don’t want to do anything = 2/10 happy.. I want to everything = 10/10 J

I am generally happy, so happy that so many aasaes are sprouting in my head.. must be the Sunshine today J

Mounted police – I want ride horse again..

I want to go to London bridge..( ah tower bridge or what ever)

I want to go camping some place...

I want to make gods place like in that korean movie...

I want to do pottery again..

I want to… I am happy.. there are these "I want to"s I missed them …

awwwww...

Newspaper today was out to kill me!

3 orphaned fox cubs were found by a farmer, He gave them a toy fox and they have adopted it as its mother! awwwwww!!! They wont be seperated from their soft toy mum and wont sleep without her ! awwww

two dogs Lillie and Zak I think, were brought up togther but Zak lost his eye sight due to infection and from then on Lillie acts as Zak's guide dog. When Lillie is around Zak can be completely normal, their connection is almost telepathic! awww! They are abandoned and need a home :-( they can't be separated :-(

awww I want to cry!

my heart goes.. mmm( I hate that song.. but ..)

my heart hurts.. I like these things so so much ,wonder why

Cherry blossom - I didnt know the name of this tree.. I saw it in Israel, its more of a shrub there, Ive seen in it UK and in pictures of chinese and japanese gardens and chinese paintings those lovely painings.. I saw this in tintin in train station when tintin came to UK.. I just wanted a bonsai of this in my garden.. and i googled really creatively for a long time to know the name of this ..

Temple tree - so holy and oh so beautiful.. I love the flower.. I love its fragrance.. more than anything I love the shape of this tree... it looks really ancient.. I mean I guess it gets that shape that I love when it gets ancient.. I love this tree in its pure indian form.. I think there are many Hawaiian hybrids in nurseries these days. but I love the dark pink with yellow center and white with yellow center temple trees.. ah I love this.. it was there in my grand mom's house in Dharwad near the compound..dark pink and yellow.. it suited my pious grandpa - these flowers.. she called it Parvati flower :-) most people think it has devil in it( CRAZY) but she loved it.. I love it too.. too much..

Mushrooms - I love mushroom,they are most intrguing things in any garden.. ah huge colored mushroom.. yeah heart ache..

Pictures of red mushrooms and a frog sitting on it

Pictures of huge lotus leaf with frog on it...

Frog dolls- frog statues for the garden

climbing roses.. english gardens..garden path with pergola with climbing rose.. small brigde across a small stream or a koi pond

koi fishes in a clear lilly pond..

Lotus blossoms-lilly ponds, lotus ponds

chinese gardens..

tibetan bells..

buddha statues...

small pond with Shiva/Radha Krishna statue in the middle...

light curving hills of Uk with fence and sheep

cottages built with rocks..

colonial houses with huge gardens and low wall with moss and lichen

picket fence

garden well - with koi and lilly would be great...

kitties..doggies..

bay windows- window seats

high cielings and those big squarewindows which reach upto the roof

sky - lights

attics and wooden stairs to the trap door

wooden floor in the attic

swing inside the house...

rainbows

golden sunsets- which colors the air golden

sunny rain

golden green beetles

glow worms or rahter fire flies i dont think Ive seen a glow worm ever..

Arabian nights stories..

sand dunes..

arabic music - belly dance- arabian nights- persian food

Samrani smell - sufi saints.

full moon - huge ones- yellow/red orange ones

used to love diamonds ( huge glass but well cut ones :P but.. what happend to that.. its seems to have gone)

tom sawyer and huckleberry finn

flower creepers climbing up houses

climbing trees.. hats..

fog, night walks in slight fog and empty streets

well lit parks late late late at night - empty swings and play things to play with

after rain smell - afternoon rain ( heavy rain not this drizzel we get here) with thunder on a holiday..when everyone else except u is napping.

saturday afternoons with viks and amma

dharwad grandmas hosue - huge rock in there which we used to call mountain :)

pipe breaks near house - i used to think river is going to comeup near house..

old english novels for children - like tom sayer..

archie comics...

and more...

I saw this silly feather today, It was flying. It didn’t know that it had fallen off the pigeon already and that it cant fly J

Reminded me of Tom and Jerry who keep on running even when the ground runs out until they realise that there is no more ground…

I caught it.. and now I m guilty that I put an end to its flying.. I tried to get it flying again but it dropped down to the ground .. poor feather.

haiku :D

cloudy

sunny

cloudy

hide and seek!

:P

Basho - please dont turn in ur grave :D

^_^

need a dreary winter to notice the spring?

feels like life(?) is a tiny bunny peeping out of its burrow, I can just see the tip of its nose..

Its coming slowly...with stealthy steps,like a dear friend who wants to walk up silently behind u and close ur eyes and surprise u with a Tada!!

grass trying to springing out of the ground..

tiny monds on empty branches..they'll become leaves in a few days..

tiny flower buds on trees..they are not even colored yet still brown with a tinge of yellow or pink..unopened presents..

new birds.. tiny sparrows and a lil bigger ones...theyve woken up and are pecking at- I dono what is there now thats was not there 2 weeks ago?

There are orange and peach colored clothes iin the shops and swim suits..

There is promise in the air.. that the dark grey days are over .. and...

its a hanging promise.. cold dark days are over :) ashte

Lovely sunny day here…

I had this everyday in Bangalore, I enjoyed it but I took this for granted.. didn’t stop a minute to appreciate the sun.

Wonder what all  it is now at this moment that I am taking for granted?

HAIKU :D

the trees are blushing

and going bare

autumn then winter

reflections at the lake side

wish one of those baby bats would make friends with me, come here baby bat...no such luck.:(

wish one of the monster bats come flying out of those woods... ok not a 20 ft one at least a 6 ft one? natural but still scary... no such luck either..hmmmm...

I am losing myself thse days... relection of the street light on water really really tempted me to walk over it.. like a bridge.. felt only my feet would splash water and get wet...I almost felt a push to get up and try it..naw.. din actually believe enough to try it...

golden evening

There was this beautiful sunset a couple of weeks ago, the kind which makes the whole world turn golden. Feels foreign that,remidns of brazil. Never been to brazil :) but I can imagine cant I? :)

Well that prompted me to tell my friend how an evening in an ideal world would be, to match this ideal sunset.
Such an evening deserves not sitting in offices. but ppl dancing to live music in the parks. there are these huge stages in parks where the town ppl practice music every evening. and passers by dance to that. ball dance or salsa . old couples and young ones too.. Its beautiful. the park is beautiful too.. with huge trees and lawn and big. no noice of vehicles here.. tho cycles run in the park, u can hear the rukus of kids playing . There are children running aroung in the park, the older ones have settled down for their daily talks. about science fiction and their favourite heros. the teenagers walk around throwing around sly glances. there are no fittness freaks sawing their butts off with ipods and black berries here. there are no texting teenagers. Its golden age and I think we are in 60s here...
Old people looking at the reflections in the river soaking up the sun and talking of old times with their old buddies they have known for ages now...walking sticks and toothless grins and mulfers monkey caps and guffass. and passing youngsters chatting up the oldies. complimenting the old granpas bout how handsome they are looking that day. everybody has a smile for everybody else.. no creased eye brows no frown lines... laughter... lightness...peaceful not quite but peaceful and the smell.... ah its smells so fresh , the grass, the leaves... like its just stopped raining...sun is trying to hide behind that far away fort on that far away hill!! I take a deep breath and stare into the horizon!! nice! I think I'll run up and climb that hill and catch the last rays of the sun... wanna race?

written 20/06/2009 almost an year ago.. edited now. :) have seen quite a few golden susnsets since then but havent been moved by any of them.