higher self

higher self exists!

Today I decided to follow my higher self, listen to my guides and angles and ask for help.  I wanted to go see the sunset from a hilltop. I have been looking for a place to see sunset from near my house and havent found one. I can see somewhat from one park but its not at a height. I even googled and then asked chatGPT to find a place. Not much luck. 

So I was too tired to go to park and do my walk I decided to drive, I usually ask for guidance like this and follow it when walking or going by tube. Yes I have done it before and interesting thigns have happened. I have discovered areas and streets near my house which I have never been to in 5 years etc.

So I sat in my car - should I put googlemaps for one hill I know? I m not sure  I can see sunset from there,  I followed my inner guidance. no SatNav. Doubting mind doubted a little, kept questionsing where are u going to go? to the lake which u go often? just to the park near by - but by car?  I was just curious and followed guidance.  but still guessing, i think we are going to Lake, but Take this first left, oh! a new road, I have driven on it just once when I was checking out a nursery, Anyway I take it.  Its going uphill which is a good sign, I go past the nursery. I have never come that way before - I dont think. Anyway It stops at a dead end. 

Ah I have actually come to that exact place before, but not by this route, with Sat Nav. It was one of the two places told by ChatGPT to watch sunset. I came here with my parents to explore  but there was nothing there.  It is on a hill but there is a forest full of very tall trees, Its full of shade, There is absolutely no view, in fact I know this forest well, if we take the path it goes down to the lake, I have explored this forest before and no views there.  Anyway I park the car and follow the guidance, Wonder where it is going to take me!!! I walk into the forest - ok may be we see sunset from lake after all. No - we suddenly take a u turn out of the forest thru another gate! I never knew there was a gate before. Also usually these gates open into streets. There is a muddy but well made cycle path there , not the forest path made by ppl walking.  I take it its going thru shrubs and all bushes, I m excited because it is going uphill. Then we turn into a small gap in the bushes.  The bushes made an arch sort of thing, I go into that gap!! and suddenly we are met with This!!! 

Miracle! :-) I m so grateful for this gift! I m writing this down because mundane life takes over and miracles are forgotten.  Clouds of doubts mask these beautiful incidents and we start being doubting and we get sucked back into Maya. These are rare glimpse where we can be aware that It is all Maya .

We have divine help! We are divine beings ! All we need is trust in the diving and ourselves and be led to our best lives! 

Huenstang was the first and coolest influencer of this world ;-)  

So much of India history know in the current modern world is thanks to this guy.  He seems so prolific , hes gone everywhere and documented everything precisely.

I have forgotten most of what I learnt about him but just saw a reel about how Nalanda university was found because of how he had described the location of this university.  He studied there for 5 years? 

In 7th century he was living the dream . Most of us cant do that even today and he has recorded it and giving us FoMO centuries later ;-)  I would totally follow him , wouldnt u?

Passive heroines who wait for the hero to break her undesirable engagement

 I hate this plot with a passion. Also that time heroines were so so passive. They wont break off the marriege engagement ( not marriage, that era women didnt break marriages. LOL. once mangal sutra was tied, that it. that was their noose :-P somehow in all these movies it was ok for the hero to hit on a girl who was engaged to some other guy, or if she has a boyfriend , no qualms about that , but thats a topic for another blog).  

So Anyway, these women- our soft pure bubbly sweet heroine, is engaged to someone else. Hero comes along, they look at the hero with wistful eyes, they flirt with all their heart, They preach the importance of true love to the guy.  They are some one who is so passionate about love but they never break their engagements on their own even tho they dont love their fiancé, Not even until the wedding day. They break off - only once they find alternative option. WTF? The option comes up on wedding day - Our hero comes to the wedding altar and stops the wedding and Yo Lady is ready to run off at the drop of a hat, but BUT she was totally ready to get married to this other guy ( some times abusive and asshole as well) minutes before. No ethics or what?  Why? They were shown as educated and having careers but absolutely no agency. And as if its 1960s where women dont have life without marriage. This is the case in so many movies, even progressive ones like 3 idiots, dil chata hai and even Jab we met ( but that is somewhat excusable because geet was stupid) Kannada movies - Godhi mai banna for one...

Also like sometimes the fiance is a decent and good human. These ladies are so inconsiderate and self centred - tumhara hona ho uska ho izzat hai :D Its not romantic, it is abusive immature and really those ladies are bad persons.

its a pity we were brought up on a heavy dose of such bad characters as leads :-( 

Some thoughts

People say walk like you are walking on flowers, but if you really want people to walk softly, they should walk like they are walking in sharp rocks - bare foot ;-) 

Every negative thought or emotion is a key to a treasure, it points to a belief which is not serving me n needs releasing.

What is your intention in saying something? or Anything? . Have u observed this aspect. Why do u say what u say?

Idea - ann app which will make u do a task in your list before allowing you to doom scroll.

effects of not talking phone on a walk

What I'm seeing right now, it's a virtual reality. It's an illusion that's created by the software - my brain,  which is trained from childhood, right? And the input that I'm getting is from my retina, mostly. My main input is the visual one that I get from the retina. Then there are other inputs , from my skin, temperature from my skin, from my ears, balance, whether I'm upright or not, whether I'm moving or not, all this. 

So, I just realized that my virtual reality and if somebody else is walking with me, their virtual reality, their stimulation, what they see, their game, it maybe different, definitely not the same, maybe slightly different or very different. It depends on their height, their viewpoint. Like I'm 5'3", so my whole virtual reality is seen from that height. If they're taller, then the whole reality is seen from some other angle. And depending on how their eye is, whether they have clear eyesight, or maybe everybody has slightly different viscosity. So they may be seeing it slightly warmer, cooler. 

And it's not possible to see somebody else's virtual reality at all, right? And what they focus on, and what they focus on depends on how they're trained from childhood. Like what I'm seeing right now, I'm seeing plants and a TV, I'm not paying much attention to the roof. But somebody else may have a habit of looking up, so they see a different thing and they see something else, they may see dirt which I don't see. 

So, so  I thought one way to look at what they're seeing is, like record the electrical pulses that are coming out of their retina ( thru optic nerve) and feed it to my brain. So I know what they're seeing. So that'll give me some insight. That'll give me insight about whether eye focuses on, that's that that will definitely be different. The contrast change in contrast, the change in the perspective, how tall or short they are. So I get some input, but how their brain interprets that input and creates virtual reality, that is very hard. Or is it? Or is it? I have seen some videos where AI looks at the ECG of the brain, is it called ECG? I don't know, of the brain, and then it converts it into pictures. So if I'm seeing a picture on the screen, the AI is reading this input and converting it into an image, which is pretty similar, it may not be the same, but similar. So, so maybe maybe we'll be able to see what somebody else, what your reality looks like. That'd be cool.

On soul choosing the life path

We sat on this roller coaster to experience this. This life is a roller coaster. Every emotion is the joy of the ride. We came here for this ride. Every feeling, every emotion is enjoyment. It is lovely. It is precious. Every feeling and sensation is precious. This is why the soul has come. It has taken this shape, it has taken this body to experience things, experience everything. Everything, every sensation, every feeling is welcome.

That's the game. That's the joy of the theme park. You can't sit on the roller coaster and cry that it's going too fast or you are upside down or you feel like vomiting. You sat on it yourself. Enjoy the ride!

Everyone says Oh! Deepa gets so angry,  She is not calm.

My anger is my strength, I love that I get angry. It is my power. my shield.  

Tho irritation and kirikiri is not my strength and I must admit I m not a fan of my snapping and easy irritation. but pure righteous anger is glorious.  It is reflection of Durga. 🙏🏼

I m crying today and sad 

and wondering about all those days I was crying and sad before

 n thinking what reason did I have to cry then?

 Absolutely nothing. I had sonu then and I still cried, why did I cry then?

Its definitely not circumstance but state of mind that is important, I had Sonu I had everything I was still sad. 

My lovely most wonderful Sonu, I miss you.  You were such a gentle man such a sweetheart, Such a big handsome boy!  Such a big hungry chonk!  fur ball.  Dumma Gunda! Sonanna! 

They say the place beyond is wonderful  full of love and light! You were full of love and light Sonu!  You are meant for that place. Happy Free Sonu! 

Are you ok?

No, 

But I will be :-) 

 - Frasier ❤️ ( well Frasier series but Niles says it many times) 

If love turns to grief, can grief turn back into love?

This is alchemy turning into gold base metals, turn into gold all emotions, they are all love only

Last two times in life, I was in deep crisis, I got kittens and that fixed me , this time my deep crisis is my kitten is going :-)