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1 September 2011

preserve or move on?

"Feeling that it is slipping away. Fear and kind of panic of loosing what I am thinking and of things which I am reading, going away without making an impact. "

I had/have this fear.

Jiddu K has a completely opposite take on this. He says mind should be fresh every single day, forget every thing u learnt, forget the traditions, forget the lessons. free the mind of old bondages, so that fresh things can come to us. he says once u start accumulating u start dieing! :-) Huh!?

Some what true.. this is what has happened in history with great cultures like India.. they did a lot of investigation, they did a lot of research, they found so to say everything - Yoga,Medicine,sprituality, everything. Then they decided that they are done. They decided they have perfected everything and they need to preserve everything as is, even the language. They found really innovative ways and rules so that people follow things as is and dont change a thing. result? Sanskrit is a dead language, we had a culture that was rotting with all kinds of sick traditions, Dogmas - Exactly like JK predicted -it died and rotted... same with Koran..

He says very nicely - life is like a river.. it is always flowing and changing and chnage is life, if you want to make it stagnant, want to preserve and keep safe, then u will only end up creating stinky ponds .

We know this, but still we want to preserve. we want summer to be here all the time and winter to not come. I know how happy spring made me just because winter was bad. I dont look at leafs sprouting now and feel happy .they are dime a dozen. I know all this but I want to preserve.

I want to preserve what I have read, I dont want it to flow away... but I am somewhat in sync with JK.. I want a back up but I want to move on as well.. thats why the blog, once I write it. I am free of carrying it with me in my head. once its written I can forget and move on to new things. but the desire to latch on to and hold on and preserve something which I think as perfect is still there... but there is no perfection is it? like a sunset or a rainbow everything is transient.. thats why it is beautiful, If the rainbow stayed there 24/7 we wouldnt really care for it... Ill learn.

But strangely for me this holding on to old is just as scary as letting go. when I see houses full of old things, someone had only cassette players, no CD player. It scared me. some people dont have internet at home. that scared me. I actually love antiques.. when I see very old houses and artifacts I love it.. but that stagnation , I am afraid of it. I may be stagnant in many ways too and I may not know it, that scares me. Some people talk about favourite movie - from 1990;s, songs from 90's I met a group of long lost friends once and I felt they were still there where I was in 1990 but I have moved on, jokes which I used to laugh at when I was 19...I like to do this in nostalgia mode but for them it was their NOW. I felt some what sad and scared. I dont want to be in that place. thats why I accepted google+ not that I want aother social networking site but I dont want to be left behind.. android phone.. I will buy it soon even tho I am perfectly happy with my aging nokia. JK wouldnt recommend being scared of stagnation tho he would say "notice! be aware" :D :P

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