Do you feel happy about meeting a kindred spirit or do you feel competitive?
This is because, me was feeling uneasy and uncomfortable and full of self doubts after some people declared they have similar goals like me. Its not like I felt competitive, It was like WHAT? This person? It gave my ego a little bit of a jolt by saying 1)everyone is doing it 2) even people like this are doing it, are all those who do it ( including probably me) are fake.
When some people are interested in the same things as me and have the same goal as me, It makes me really happy. You like yoga? I like yoga too! You want to simplify things? I want to, too! What all are you doing? tell me! give me tips, I want to be better. Lets do something together. etc.
But when some other people say the same thing, I can feel my face getting smaller. Oh Is it? Oh you did Yoga with this personal trainer for 6 months? Such a materialistic and manipulative person, Yoga didnt change him?
Oh you are mindfulness instructor? That is great! In my mind? Such a fake person! Inspite of doing mindfullness. Is mindfullness useful at all.
You believe in being less materialistic? In my mind - but this woman is such a show off, Is always interested in showing others how well off she is! so materialistic and she believes in simple life? *roll eyes*
I feel like these things have become buzz words, just like people dropped buzz words during meetings, now people drop buzz words during personal conversations as well. These things Yoga, mindfulness and environment and everything have become such cool things that everyone seems to want to be seeing doing it.
Fittness too - In that case more people are more genuine ( atleast I can accept more people are more genuine)
Still makes me too feel like a sheep! Am I like this? Am I a buzz word generator, Am I also just doing the in things? Am I a fad follower!
I also feel these people compete with me when I talk to them, The tone seems to be like - Oh u do it? I do better. I dont know if this is in my mind or if the attitude is in them. In any case it is bothering me.
It really bothers me that mindfulness is only seen as something for stress reduction or yoga as only for fitness.
It really bothers me when materialist and manipulative people drop words like mediation and consciousness.
It really bothers me that some of them even seem to be into it quite deeply.
It really bothers me that it bothers me :-D I feel like - I should welcome them, but I dont, I hate them.
It really bothers me that this may be bothering me, because it is taking away my USP from me
It really bothers me that all this is a fad
It really bothers me that all this may be a fad and I am into it, also because of the fad. :-D
Uffff!!!! These people have really bothered me today!!!
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