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Trying to post this from my e-mail! J Let see how this goes..

 

Nick Vujicic – the guy with no hand no legs and NO LIMITS.  He is an awesome guy allright. The way he is living his life and his attitude is just amazing. Put me to shame. It is very obvious his religion and his church has played a very major role in him and his parents being able to cope with the situation . It must have been very ( unimaginably) difficult – the support that their religion and community has given them is priceless.. so it is understandable that there is a bit of evangelism in the book- I knew this. I decided to read the book anyway but my poor impressionable brain hehe! .. That night  - my mum – we got her converted to Christianity, because we were getting I-phone free.. LOL .. and now she became so fanatical- actually she was more like enthusiastic than fanatical.. any way that was too enthu for all of us and it was unbearable and so we want to convert her back ok.. but its not allowed itseems. So we had to take this up with – ahem- GOD !! I had to take this roller coaster ride to get to his kingdom- looked like a red fort ..  The God territory looked very similar to grand canyon :D and the roller coaster was really scary.. and long winded and after that I think we all forgot about what we wanted with all this..  Dreams!!! Crazy! J

Little women and werewolves...

Guess I am running out of great books and picking up these from the library...

I expected to read a comedy parody of little women when I picked up this book.. I read little women 15 years ago, may be long before.. when I was in the middle of classics craze... too sugary preachy too sweet.. self righteous. I was determined to not like it. I think almost every page I sighed oh! so cheezy.. :D

Little women and werewolves is not a parody, not a comedy either( tho sometimes I wonder if the author is making fun of the original plot :P exhibition of the amputees -after reading the full book, ya -I guess she is....she kinda sucks :P) Its like reading little women all over again .

and I am so surprised to see that when I am coming close to the pages where Laurie is going to propose to Jo and she is going to refuse.. I just cant get myself to go forward.. I am emotional :-( poor Jo :( I hate it that he will go and like that scheaming lil Amy later. I am heartbroken, When Beth dies, I am afraid Ill I cry again! I cant believe that this novel had touched me so deeply the last time around.. It is so cheezy and sugary! god, its almost unbearable with all the characters having nothing but good in them and all that.. but these good writers are really sneeky. They just sneek in and touch ur heart even when u are very well prepared to dislike their work?! and u wont even know it then. Lousia Alcott is a great writer.. it is so obvious - the added parts suck so badly...There are so many different levels or writings...even if u think u dont know and dont care much about language and the style of writing etc, I think we do feel the quality of writing.Arthur Clarke is good in all the books he wrote...J . K Rowling - Harry potter all books are good... I would think Arthyr clarke is way better... She is not as good as the classic writers but she's better than the twilight and the poison study ladies and Dan brown ,who were one book wonders and then started churning out the same things all over again and then there are writers of those M n B type books who totally suck.. so - wide variety of quality... I guess I need those low quality books to read when in the loo and just to fill those 5 - 10 mins u get here and there :D dont feel like using those for good books..

About little women - I relate to the girl Jo...Made me think of the author herself- its an autobiographical character after all.. I feel a dull ache in my heart.. Spinsterhood was a dream and the fate of old world feminists....I think ..I too belong to that group(old world feminist, I mean- not spinster :P).. and I am one of the last survivers of that group... they dont make girls like tat any more :-) Are those sentiments really valid in todays world I wonder... anyway... apparently intended Jo to be a spinster but her readers couldnt take it that she split up Jo and Laurie and that their fav character would be an old maid. So she brought in the odd German professor to be her husband.. I am surprised that I am one of those readers who is very disappointed that she split up Jo and Laurie and then paired him with that chit of a girl Amy! Grrr :) and I would be sadder if she was left to be old maid ( but the author in fact was one) Why? Do I also think being a spinster is sad then?!!! I dont like this sentiment in me!!! - I ve always thought that people can be quite happy and content without being married without children etc... Is it about her being a girl? no I would be just as sad if she married off Jo to someone and left the boy Laurie to be an Old bachelor.. but I dont feel sad about captain Haddock in Tintin do I? :-) May be if there was no Laurie at all in the book, If she was just happily writing books and staging plays and went on to not marry at all...ah! then I would not think it sad...hehe Hope I am not going all romantic at heart :D Grrr

Times have changed and today it is not necessary to be spinster to be all independent and a fiery author - I empathise with the women of those times - They did a bigger sacrifice to be different to follow their hearts...they had it harder - harsher society, harder finances/jobs harder to come by/more moulds to break...is that Harder or funner? a bigger challenge is bigger fun :)(I think those times lasted till about 1980's :) When I was younger I liked doing those things that annoyed people more. now people accept everything - even sadu aunts :) There is no fun for rebel without causes like me anymore sigh!:D

Its a book and just a story after all.. I m gonna pick it up and read now :P

dream diaries

Funny - trying to remember dreams. people said write them down.

From when I ve started to think Ill write them down, Ive started dreaming after every dream that I wrote them down! :D :P :P :P Shame on me! :D

embarrassed

When ever I sit in the tube

Should I get up and give seat to someone..

Is anyone old standing and I am sitting

When I do see an old person

Hesitation – is he/she old enough to offer seat?

Should I?

Will they feel embarrassement if they are not really old but haven’t dyed their hair etc?

If they think they are young?

Hmmm… before I make up my mind and the person gets off with in one stop and goes

Another one keeps standing..

I am feeling Very odd..

Should I embarrasse myself and still offer seat

Ok I did make up my mind and offered seat to one lady who looked tired one day

She thanked me and sat down

Few days pass – most of my journey passes with this kind of discomfort

Then the good thing happens.. believe me it’s a good thing

This man – 50-60 standing in front of me. Train is crowded

Should I give up seat? Grr …

He wiping off sweat profulesy slipping

Ufff too much

I got up and offered seat..:-$

Oh no no no I am not tired, please sit down. Umm I wont back off so easily it is embarrassing to sit down no?

I offer he refuses I offer he refueses L I sit down.

Then…next stop someone gets off – almost half train gets off and he gets a seat and sits down.

I am uncomfortable meeting his eye.. I am embarrassed that I sat back after offering as if I was half hearted offering seat.

Aah but that lasted half an hour.. Now I am rid of that stupid discomfort for ever

I sit and I no longer offer seat to anyone. If its really old and standing right in front of me.. probably then..The thought also is not bothering me.

Embarrassement is a good cure..

I am wondering why I didn’t cure myself earlier… it has such temporary discomfort and permanent relief.

I am thinking of using it as an effective tool on myself.. just embarrase myself first day so it wont matter after that :-D

Simple no?

create death?

Continuing on http://mystic-babe.blogspot.com/2009/07/death.html, I was wondering if we will re-invent death and introduce it to our appliances. I think we will do this pretty soon, mobiles will die in 3 years. They will decompose and get back to nature just like we do. TV;s 5 years? cars 10-15? houses - 100? or 25?

Death of animals was by design , destruction is as much needed as creation. we are still baby- creators so we untill now in the civilisation have thought of only creation, destruction took care of itself.. ( wonder if early life forms died of old age? do viruses die of old age? when did old age and death evolve? ) Only now - after thousands of years of civilisation - the big recycle problem- is really a problem.

and We have to copy nature once agian...use its wisdom. so when we create anything new.. we will plan its death, put in a timer - set its life time, plan its death and decomposition....

We will also save on lot of resources.. many houses are built to last 300 years but are demolisdhed in 30-40 years? if we plan on death and re-use we will save lot of resources and money.

As the civilisation progresses i think we learn more and more about nature and understand why everything is the way it is...we settle down...we are making a big fuss but we just invented non recyclable things...we will learn. we are adaptable species.

Death used to be fascinating/feared then it turns out it is bare necesity of nature...and immortality on the other hand seems more like curse and It is impractical from natures point of view :)

We should plan death of software as well....self destructing source code - become redundant after certain date - other wise test_app.c will still be there in 2050 :) or should we??

- DNA doesnot die, design of new animals is never from scratch -we still have legacy code like gills when we are embryos!!!...

edit:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Senescence

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Evolution_of_ageing

There a lot of theories for aging...Actually there is lot of read on this subject...

(BTW I dont like aging, i mean I wouldnt like my mobile to age, but I would like to die tho and decompose :-) )

childhood's end by Arthur C clarke..

wow what a story!

Really built up the suspsense about the looks of the aliens and then.. :D wow!! hahaha!! Loved it! that really scared me .. sort of anti climax tho that they din have any ulterior motive and very really benovalent creatures...

but the story slightly scared me about spirituality.. he is making fun(?) or interpreting spirituality is such a way as to run creepies down my spine....

being one with god and all that... is it like this..? wow...being one with all - losing individuality ? is it really good? really creepy.

The overlords - I donot feel sad for them.. its not bad thing that they cant achieve oneness with overmind.. they have their individuality.. its a good thing.? hmm should humans envy them or feel sad for them? ( atleast from what happened in the story - Lucky..?)

He predicted that social structure will change in 1953 with the advent of oral contraceptive and DNA testing... hmmm society doesnot change at the speed of science.. there is a lot more lag. I understand.. even I wud think like arthur but...society din change all that much yet- did it? its been like 40 years now?? but he was dead on that there will be DNA testing in 50 years! :)

His prediction about entertainment have surely come true - "they watch 3-4 hours of entertainment per day and there is so much entertainment available that one would spend a life time if one wanted to watch everything that is available." :-)

He was wrong about cold war not ending :) din see India and China coming up so strong ...

He predicted end of racism and inter race marriages- which is kinda coming true..

I love how he came up with such different stories for the same theme - aliens.

Rama 1,2,3 is a different kinda alien different story, the 2001 space odyssey aliens are again different and this is something else...:)

It is properly tempered - the society in 2001 series has changed a lot because human race went out into space.. the society is slightly different from now in childhoods end because human race never left earth...I like Arthur Clarke.

save the world and such crap

Ah! this Paulo coelho blog post makes me feel really good.. Exactly my feelings actually.

http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2011/01/04/global-warming/

Whenever I read articles in newspapers or magazines written by politicians using global warming or the destruction of the environment for their electoral campaigns, I think:

How can we be so arrogant? The planet is, was and always will be stronger than us. We can’t destroy it; if we overstep the mark, the planet will simply erase us from its surface and carry on existing.

Why don’t they start talking about not letting the planet destroy us? Because “Saving the planet” gives a sense of power, action and nobility. Whereas “not letting the planet destroy us” might lead us to feelings of despair and impotence, and to a realisation of just how very limited our capabilities are.

Let’s be humble. Let’s respect Mother Earth because if She becomes furious with our behavior, we are in trouble.

When these people say Save the Earth, I always hear this argument in my head - Its not required to save nature or species or mother earth, life and earth are perfectly capable of saving themselves. species come and species go- 90% species have been eradicated many times over and new better ones(?? :-)) have sprung up.

It is us - humans who will be at loss if things go wrong with the world.

If we cut down trees in bangalore, is it a loss for mother nature or for us? mother nature is patient she will wait, in 3 million years when humans have gone extinct - trees will grow back...or may be not. The dominat species that time may be giant fungii.. what ever.

who is at loss then? mother nature at loss? or is it us? save the planet campain should be renamed as save ur a** :D

Thanks Paulo for putting that in perspective - nicely.

Why do we sometimes watch/hear/pickup things which irritate us and then try and get irritated?

Its like "A Bail Mujhe Maar."

There is this really irritating regressive serial( korean one at that) I get so angry when I watch it cause it is so regressive. did I stop watching no? I watched and I found forums where I could air my feelings about how appalling it was :D I was really happy to find a lot of bashers tho..

I do this a lot, Twilight series - horrible :D I hated it, but I did finish it ! and got so angry and irritated... I do this a lot..

sometiems kick up topics so that I can get angry irritated and argue about it..

My internal argument against this was( dont agree with it, I am just creating an itch so that I can scratch)...

It is because I have an opinion and I care too much about soemthings and I hate the opposite... my opinion is so strong that I cant ignore. I care.

It is along the same lines fighting with the Auto guy for 2 Rs, asking someone who breaks the queue to please stand back,... but a lil more proactive stance..

peace loving people - They either dont care too much about things..

That is all ok but I do look for thigns to get worked up about and get worked up dont I? :) I do this a lot :P

embarassing moment part 3

dont leave foot prints when u are snooping around on the net :-$

Happy New Year

Such a stupid concept, why will we be happy just because the date is changed?

Its changed everyday. one or the other digit is changed everyday ..the new year will be just as miserable as the other years of our life. :-(

Edit: apparently being cynical like this is very common, my friend says

It is not just you. Many people have asked similar questions. So many people asked such questions that some clergy made it into a religious custom :-)
Jewish people have a custom - Ma Nishtana

at the last day of pass-over a child [or somebody] asks "why is this evening different from any other evening"

Elder people are supposed to respond
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_four_questions

So yes, the day is no different. However if you treat it just like that it will be just that. But we want days to be different - we want everyday to bring in some change, turn preferably good :-) But we also know it is not the case. So we designate a day that we consider will make a change or at least we will make some thing
different - starting from a new diary....

I liked the idiomatic use of Ma Nishtana

• Child: "Dad's in a bad mood today."
• Mother: "Ma nishtanah?" :-D

eye opens...or does it?

‎"Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live." ~ Oscar Wilde

Very easy to identify with this Quote..

it is very common in the society to label a person as selfish if that person lives as he wishes.... no body can stand a person who dares live as he wishes.. society and the conformists in it hate it and then they tag him - selfish.

There is such pleasure, such a sense of liberation, its most of our dream to live just as one wishes...and not submit to others desires. Especially my generation, how we crave to live as we want to but feel tied.. but cant..feel like our wings cut...

due to others selfishness :-) :-) we all like to play victim ...

asking others to live as one wishes to live.. we always find that others do this to us.. oh the misery! the misry of doing as others wish....and me? I am never like this!! right? or Am I?

Ive been troubled and irritated at times past couple of days angry and pissed off..

The misery and anger why do u think it comes..

My husband drinks too much, my husband does not talk to me as I wish him to talk, my husband is always using cuss words... My husband...Grrrrr Bottom Line... My husband does not live as I wish him to live!!!

For that matter - my mom does not throw away old stuff - keeps hording everything, my mother in law - she follow all these age old customs, keeping sucha big bindi, these stupid UK people always wearing black even in winter- why cant they wear color,These stupid people always use cuss words,These bramhins they are so educated and in good jobs but they still do madi (Untouchability)! god!These Muslim ladies and their Head scarfs and tights!!!!(roll eyes)... Irritating isnt it? All these bloody people do not live as I wish them to live!!

and That my dear friend is what I WISH them to do and that my dear friend is SELFISHNESS??? :)

Asking others to live as one wishes to live - if u are dominant type a - like Taliban and Hitler will bring untold misery to others.

If you are the non dominant( I wouldnt call submissive- submissive surrender probably does not cause them any misery! I dono thats not me) then it brings untold misery to you. you blame others for it, but ultimately its you who is responsible for this suffering. Its called Expectations in common terms - Its not painted as Selfish. but apply Oscar's definition and it is anything but selfish..

Is having expectations wrong then? do u like others having expectations from you? no?then? ?

Sadly.. yes sadly, Life is not as simple as all this.. as simple as eyes opening and closing...as black and white.

There are bloody grey areas...no? and multi coloured ones. Life is a struggle trying to make sense of this mess.. trying and trying.. but u keep trying...because.. you and only you are responsible for it - u want the fault to be with you because its is probably easier to solve. u can do it yourself. if the problem is with others it is not easy to solve. thats a rant.. anyway..

What defines expectation and when does it cross over into selfishness...is there a non selfish expectation? is it ok to have them? What is fair and what isn't? Where do u draw the line..

Govt wishes us to live by the law. is the Govt selfish? :)

a) my children will take care of me when I am old. ( when I saw this in Babul movie, I felt stupid selfish father, but when I saw the same situation in School master- I cried - selfish children.. I couldnt think of father as stupid or selfish..poor dear father. that old man)

b) my children will study well and get into engineering/medicine.( my dad had this expectation and I loved him for that. but if I didnt want it, then it would become selfish? does the cost matter and also the motive. 3 idiots anyone? )

c) my children will study well and become decent individuals.( this does not sound selfish because it is very flexible. but this expectation can also cause misery to the parents...if the kid is "Madhuri dixit banna cha ti hun" type or worse tapori type like that one who wants to write Geetha I love u on walls :D)

d) I dont care what happens to my children...( is this a realistic option?)

so .. it turns out .. we may HAVE TO( or rather we WILL) have expectations. Is it ok to have them? but as we saw above not having expectations is not an option, not a realistic one at-least. you can have a weird life like that- if u are Buddha .

( let us leave aside for now, the moral(?) question of whether expectations are selfish or not. Whether it depends on the motive of the expectation, the flexibility etc)

The question for us mortals is - It causes us misery and what do we do about them.

No answer

... should we add love to this equation? :) ( watching bollywood movie and recently read paulo coehlo...:P)

Love makes it all bearable?? others expectation or ours? or is it a two edged sword used to twist arms.. filmy dad who get heart attack - I will die if u dont marry this boy types in movies?

Does it makes the pain from expectations bearable... does it?

This discussion is still under progress...

Dream

Rachel and George Clooney went to a premier... As usuall Rachel is fussy - she says we are not in black and white.. u sit on the mens side and Ill sit in the womens...as soon as they enter.. she gets all flustered.. O O how do I know which side is women and which side is men... ( but hello!!! U can SEE the people sitting!:)) too late...they are ushered away and Rachel is sitting awkwardly with some boring (serious) men and George is being wooed by some 20 women.. :D

too much friends? BTW George Clooney and Rachel - awesome couple. :) He was lookin really awesome in black suit with thin fitting trousers.

lessons

Todays news there is this boy- footballer I think - killed himself because his girlfriend ditched him for some other guy - she came back later... he killed himself after a few months anyway. There is this another gun wielding middle aged man who went and threatened employers of his wife because they sacked her and them shot himself at the end of the drama... Pitiable..

This is how it is to be under control of anger/sadness.. is like this whole new person/personality takes u over and makes u do things which u would never do in your senses. urging on. pushing ,tormenting u with these torterous thoughts and feelings on and on - untill you jsut want to get rid of it...even if u do some serious damage -its like this devil who wont let up without his blood sacrifice.

Ive been there...usually this temper urges on to do something bad all right - like go break a glass or tear up things and burn something..hit yourself, kick yourself....ok but I act smarter -I listen and dont act.. but bottling up and controling is not enough. Its sneaky, it slips out and does damage.. subconsciously may be. thats when it reminds me of Louise hay- how she says our thoughts can make our future..

I was really really angry.. like this.. when this anger got hold of me.. but controlled myself really hard and didnt do anything harmful... got hungry -was fixing myself lunch and boom - really really hot rasam spills all over me and I have this huge horrid burn on my hand and face and eyes!!! It burnt and stung for hours and hours ...and hurt for days...

Guilt - buddy doggy broke his leg, someone hit it and its leg got fractured. I din know that it was fractured all right, I thought young doggy will recover by itself.. 2 weeks didnt recover.. took him to doc. doc says oh his fracture is healed.. but his leg will be crocked because the bones have joined at an angle. I was hit by guilt.. if only Id taken this doggy earlier to doc - he wouldnt walk limping all his life... I go around mopping and feeling guiltly for a few weeks -every time I see the doggy -guilty. and what happens - I slip from the bed! at home -twist my ankle - sprain and fracture and bed ridden with a cast for 2 weeks!!! ( doggy has no trace of limp after a month! he did recover) Its as tho I punish myself for these things unconsciously..Its like its not enough to use will power and control the thoughts u have to not have them at all in the first place.

how how how damn important it is!!This of letting go and forgiving.. I m someone who is learning this from books since 2 years now? and i still have so much trouble with this....Shouldnt we all be taught the importance of letting go and forgiving and loving in our schools along with maths and science and that horrid civics?? Its such a hard lesson at that. we had these moral science class in school which was such an apology of a class - nothing but a free period. We dont need morals.. we need some real lessons - if only... if only that boy has been taught to forgive, to let go, to love himself.. it all sounds like new age crap- but it would have saved his life...Girl cheating on him wouldnt have hit his self esteem. he would know that she too is still learning in this world and Its would make his heart light if he had said I bless her and forgive her ( and fast :D ;)) Its corny and cheesy- but it works..It builds tremendous amount of selfrespect.. and it helps you see- that she too has her issues and that in the big scheme of things -its ok really.

more than to forgive others - forgive ourselves..

I wonder if blaming ourselves gives us a sense of control and satisfaction...

when my cats died i noticed my self trying to find a thousand ways to get blamed... I saved the dog which killed them..I shouldnt have let them out of the house..I shouldnt have moved to HSR...but none of them held up when scrutinised and it was really frustrating to not really find something to blame myself for...surpriseing soemtimes how mind craves to feel responsible and then feel guilt...why? because u feel u had an option to be in control. but truth is soemthings just happen. and u cant do much about it...

Like Murali said - you dont prevent macroblocks on channel change - you accept them :-)

Insistent "BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA..."

I am going to do meditation ... about to reply BLA BLA BLA.. ...bla...

Oh well! cant do that..meditation will get spoilt..

I heard myself mutter..

OKay GOD!! PLEASE BLESS HIM ...He is unwise...God - please give him some good sense...

and make it FAST!!!!?!!? :) hahaha!!

That cracked me up! really? make it fast? :D :)

There are two voices in my head- really! and one of them sometimes makes fun of the other ! :P

stories I hate

I just hate them.. since when I was small...They just make me cry I dont want to listen to them... ever..there are only 2..thank god

One is Punya Koti - "Dharani mandala Madhya dolage"... as soon as i hear that ... grrrr... close ears!! bla bla bla bla bla!!! wooo wooo woo!! dont want to hear!!!! go away! drown that noise!! The tune of that song - its so sad and pathetic and the story.. hateful. The tiger killed itself in the end X-( ok they wanted to save the noble cow! good! do it!! but it was not at all necessary to kill the tiger - it was a reasonable and nice tiger.. who else wud let punyakoti go and say bye to her calf and .. ( possibly)come back? wasnt it a kind tiger and trusting one at that? why did they make a villain out of a nice tiger and kill it? X-( I hate it. I hate it I hate it X-( I hate the story and I hate the song.. how it has made me cry when I was a kid. Why do they write tragic stories like this for children? X-(

Kabuliwallah...This makes me cry even today... My mum has painted a nice picture of Afghans for me.. they used to sell dry fruits when she was a kid.. may be the border was porous and no terrorists then.., many kabuliwalahs used to visit... Pran and his - yaari hai Imaan meri ..added up to the feel good. I built this image of a strong big bearded men, but with soft innocent hearts ( Taliban anyone? LOLOLOL.) They always carried knives.. very down to earth people.. very trusting and honest. never cheated any one and believed u if u said u will pay tomorrow or later...they carried their heart on their sleeves and they didnt have much control over their emotions.. they killed u, if u din pay the next day tho. well simple people are like that.:-P

And then.. this story - Its a nice story for big people actually...but for a kid.. its not nice. Kabuliwallah is so kind and loving to this girl.. he comes back from jail and that girl is getting married and she refuses to even recognise him! X-( I am sure she remembered but she din want to know a jail bird Afghan old man! horrid girl! many girls are like that, I hate all those girls. sissy whiney girls X-( so many of the girls in school and who I played with when I was a kid were like that...spineless,catty,ratty lil.. (:D u know what word should follow that :P ). I think such girls get filtered out( to where? where ever, Away from me!) and as I got into college and work I started meeting better and better girls and women. anyway its so sad.. he has a daughter just like her in kabul but he is stuck here because of her and she does not even recognise him.. how sad it must have made that poor man :,-( poor dear man :( I dont like tragedies! bad!

I didnt like jungle book the movie also.. the boy goes away behind the human girl in the end :-( baloo and bagira are sad... but I saw the part 2 where he comes back :) tho the part two was an old black and white non cartoon version. It was awesome movie, the girl is back with him in the jungle and he finds treasure in the old ruins... so that doesnt make it to the hate list.

There was one more movie about a cat and dog being friends but the cat ditched the dog because it found another cat friend.. I dismissed that story - Cats are always painted black- people are jealous of cats..I am totally gonna ignore that movie too..

HAIKU :D

the trees are blushing

and going bare

autumn then winter

kitty

Sweetest thing this furry friend of mine...

We are going to shift in two days and I am sad to be saying bye to this bugger.. I keep some food for him/(her?) and wait.. I can see him sleeping on the terrace in his house.. doesnot turn up.. I try to call but I think he is deaf anyway :P :P no show..

Today we are leaving. I am really sad, my cutie pie kittu din show up.. he is not even there on the terrace.. Its raining. I dono where he is when it rains... I just filled up his water bucket and put some food anyway.. it will get wet.. but its ok... ( yeah yeah Id decided I am not gonna feed him and get him used to food and all.. but is there any other way to show love? Remember grand mums and mum and aunts and grand aunts stuffing us with food till we are full to the brim?) anyway I am really sad, hed been a good friend to me. Dirty bugger, few times hes come in really stinky - its those glands on their bum, he must have been frightened in the day or something and activated those stinky glands. and drools if he gets really cozy...rub his stomach a bit and he is frothing in the mouth.. I was not alarmed this time tho Id seen my chotu froth and Cats are crazy animals they froth in the mouth if they dont like what theyve eaten and when are, well just pleased.. purring is not enough at times. yeah I am thinking these things and missing him...

Its time to leave, we are all packed and all our bags are in the car.. final cleaning in the house is done. We are almost saying bye to Mark and returning the keys, Its pouring like crazy and Guess who turns up..:) :) :) all wet that too. Meowing loudly. I am really touched that this bugger comes to say bye to me.. We got to tell him a nice good bye. He stayed there on the door step till we turned the car and left... sitting in the rain - dirty bugger! :) sweetest ever!

rajan kivi

Love this Kannada movie plot - ond Raja irtane, Avan kivi katthe kavi agogatte..yarigu gotiraala, but one day hair cutting madakke barber bartane and he gets to know the state of raja's ears. Avnge secret mansalli itkollake aggalla.. but yargadru helidre - he will lose his head. sakkat vaddadi tadkolakkagde wife ge heli bidtane.. as soon as he tells.. his wifes stomach becomes really big... because she is carrying the secret LOL! she cant keep a secret too..(obviously :P) so they go onto a forest dig a deep ditch and she shouts into it.. Rajana kivi katte kivi Rajana kivi katte kivi ! helid takhsna her hotte is normal :) (if I tell out some secrets will my stomach also....)but.. bhumi tayi also cant carry the secret discretely :) so aa jayagalli one dry tree hut bidatte :) LOL... after some days some musicians( royal ones I think :) ) come that way.. find that tree and make a tabla out of it... Guess what comes out when u play that tabla... "Rajan Kivi Katte Kivi :) :)"

haha not that I am gonna do a truth and bare ( what was that game... ah! truth or dare ! horrid game) but I do feel kinda relieved like that lady who barked secrets into the ditch..

I was thinking what really happens when u tell out things...

for one thing.. what ever you tell out looses potency...

yeno madbeku ankondu.. madak munche hattu janakke helbitre.. that thing never gets done..

yeno tale kori ta irratte.. talk about it to a good friend .. same thoughts will come back but koriodilla alva?

and for another how they sound when told out loud to others they make entirely different sense than how they sound inside our heads ...yeno dodda vishya nanu yeno madibiite ansta irratte but once u tell others u feel aiyo silly things yaake tale kediskondidde anta..

or sometimes opposite.. silly anta ankondirtive but reaction nodi oops ansattee..

also unburdening your heart to near dear ones or to complete anonymous strangers or whatever Its is almost theopahtic.. feel Its absolutely necessary for a healthy life...

Aiyo nanu tappu maddi bitte.. aiyo I am so silly and I am doing crazy this this this and this crazy things... or this friend of mine is really .. grr want to wriggle their neck...anta friend ge helidre saku.. crazy thing tale inta hogibiddatte.. friend neck wriggle mado enthu nu hotogatte...and all is well agogatte :)

Sense of relief u get when u tell out some things is really something! :) secrets or otherwise...

ps: so some peoples who I am pestering from long time to tell the secret -bear ur heart.. here is an ear( katte kivi :D) ready to listen :P

nonstopnonsense

9:45 late to office

No trains in Ealing station

next train to Epping in 7 minutes

next train to Norflock in 18 minutes

train arrives on platform 5

people get in- people find a seat, people sit down

train arrives on platform 6

accouncement:

train on platform 6 leaving in 2 minutes

people get up, people run, but train doors are already closed

train on platform 6 leaves

people return to platform 5

people catch a seat, people sit down

another train arrives on platform 6

another announcement :

train on platform 6 leaving in 4 minutes

people get up, people run ,

people catch a seat, people sit down

train on platform 5 leaves :D WTF?!!?

embarrassed announcement: Err..we are sorry if u were misled by announcement in the other train!!!!!!!!! This train will depart in 5 minutes..

Total delay 20 minutes

Also this particular people was wearing headphones -listening to music and was running between trains just because other people was doing the same, without hearing any but the last announcement.

ps: this train will depart, this train will terminate..cant they manage to say the same thing in less gloomy language?

new job

1st week they said hi :)

2nd week they asked how it was going...

3rd week and I am the furniture !!