"This too shall pass!"  Loving this cliché :)

2 questions

Can I access the stillness? even in this?
What is causing this suffering?

Question 1- we(I) are always thinking, I need a vacation/ I need a break, does that break ever come? we need to relax now. because there is nothing else really. we have to vacation in the midst of whatever - calm, serenity may be, or confusion and stress, or pain and anguish, or excitement and happiness( Ironically most difficult to find the stillness when we are happy :) )  Seek stillness this moment, Its always there.

Question 2 - Buddha said life is suffering, I used to be offended by this statement, now I know - life is dis-satisfaction.  Attachments to past, to ego, to status, to status quo, to our happiness and to our suffering, is always causing some kind of Dukha. If we find ourselves unable
to access stillness - question 2 may help. Beware of attachment to stillness itself. Dissatisfaction due to lack of stillness, Ego can also attach shame and sense of failure to lack of stillness.  A good Tshirt would be "I m not ashamed of my Dukha" :)

These 2 questions will help in the path towards more mindfulness.