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29 June 2012

2D -3D

How do we perceive reality - vision being our main sense.. we "see" a 3 dimensional world, as I type this.. I m seeing a room , chairs table TV, TV is far away, chair near me .. the room is slightly tapering showing perspective.. I feel the sense of space around me.. I "know" or rather  I "see" this space..
I see a flat picture on the TV screen..3D no depth. I see a flat 2D image on a magazine.
I feel 2D is a compromise of seeing and 3D is the "real" world..
but u know what?
Isnt 2D  how we acually see the world?what our eyes see is exactly what we see in a photograph right?  a 2D image.. and 3D - is fake! 3D is the simulation, 3D and the sense of space - this is the work of our brain.. its the modeling done by our brain to facilitate us to navigate in a 3D world,.

Brain takes this image and memory and does 1001 processing. ( need to read up on that) makes discrete 2D images into a continuous 3D movie/simulation/game!!
(havent read it.. but looks good ... this one.)
http://www.mind.ilstu.edu/curriculum/vision_science_intro/vision_science_intro.php?modGUI=204&compGUI=1940&itemGUI=3375

They say - brain uses the difference between the images from left and right eye to determine the depth of the world..  but does the vision that we see collapse into 2D if we close one eye? ;-) like this? no..
The model is made from memory.. I think it uses not only 2 angles but also shadow/light,perspective and what not  and also memory to build this 3D world. I think painters who create pictures know instinctively what parameters brain uses to create this depth..


Also this model is our limitation, if even tho we lived in a 3D world but our model was a 2D one, we would be stuck in it! :) and move like we were stuck between 2 glass sheets :) like flatland :)


Again it goes to show - everything is Maya - unreal! I know this,believe this but is it real for me?do I feel this? no! :-) how does the realisation of this take place??

I dont think our brain scans and creates this world everytime we see, like mpeg decoding.. it patches up only the changes.. and thats why sometimes we dont see the things we are searching for even if they are right in front of us, if we dont expect them there. our brain has decided that portion of the 3D world doesnot need refreshing - it couldnt have changed , so it shows us memory of that table.. when that bloody key was not on it :)
When people take hallucinogens they can see the room in front of them even with eyes closed! They can move around too!! offcourse the information is all there!! May be, to make us believe that it is not a projection but it is reality, brain switches off this projection when the new images stop coming i.e when we close our eyes, but  it is quite capable of continuing the show - even with eyes closed...like our dreams.we are quite capable of making our own landscapes...Imagination is one thing, this is total reality experience.. like reality but not!!! anyway I think astral projection and Out of body experiences are all this...Alternative states of consciousness.. I may have said before meditation/yoga is actually hacking our own brain.. enlightened person is the ultimate hacker. 

Symbols

Mystical speak - for example aura/energy bodies Chakra , These concepts are actually tools or symbols to help us understand a concept, not exactly to be taken literally?
Like a Sine wave for example,

Its hard to remember that this is *not* the sine wave, This is a symbol which helps us understand what a sine wave is...Its so easy to confuse a model with the real thing.. 


The mystical concepts,  most of us take it literally - some find it so silly that they scoff at it and other believe blindly. but actually what these mystical concepts are - are like say a block diagram of our software, When a lay man  looks at Set top box architecture diagram , they may expect these little boxes - drivers/middleware/application to be found when he breaks open a box. We are being this layman when we expect the astral body/mental body etc to be found surrounding our body? offcourse! 
God/Soul/Prana everything, What ever is said of it.. is symbolic, we will know what it all is.. only when we experience it.

You know what words are ?
"They are an agreement between  the speaker and the listener. With out this agreement the words dont have any meaning. each sound has a meaning in ur head and the meaning in my head and when we hear a sound, we do a look up  to its meaning and it becomes word " - from Seth Speaks.


21 June 2012

I m  that interesting person u are pretending to be ;-)  -Deeps :P

20 June 2012

more gyan

Oh well... Great crisis needs great gyan ;-)
kindness!
Easy and relaxed...
love and compassion - do I deal with everyone and everything with love and compassion? I notice not at all.. there are lot of places where we behave with competitiveness, defensiveness , with the intention of putting the  person in place, cutting the person to size.. with irritation, revenge..
forgiveness
Most important aspect of all **awareness**.

13 June 2012

Love me for a reason...

...let the reason be Love.

When I walk in my garden I feel my plants love me... not "I love my plants"- I feel "my plants love me..."
I wonder - can it be? Is it my imagination?
but then how do u ever know anyone loves u? Isnt that also equally imagination?
by their actions u say...by their actions - what they do for u.. are they kind? do they buy u gifts etc?  Really??
u see it in their eyes?
we see a smile in this ":-)"  Do u trust ur eyes? :)
U wud say u can feel it.. then I can feel the same with plants... :)
 I think when u feel u love someone or when u feel someone loves u.. u know... both these feelings are felt with in us only... not necessarily in the other person!? u can call it imagination or what ever...


Love me as u want to, no rules no conditions
u  love me because u did this, u dont love me becuase u did that! no thats all bull shit!
I trust ur love as it is. If I feel it, its love! :)


Unconditional love we say.. Isnt love always unconditional.. when we put conditions on love is it love at all?
when I say I love rainbows.. what do I expect out of rainbow? just to give me pleasure... actually it produces this feeling in me.. thats what I call love..Full moon... chrerry blossom.. Taj Mahal..
 I love birds and squirrels.. Or wild life.. thats the same kinda of love as for rainbows and moon.. no expectations no attachments..no missing? no longing...
Can we have that kind of love with people.. love them because they make u feel love!??



12 June 2012

discussion with myself

Too much gyan... I know.. but that was the point of this blog right? what ever on my mind at the moment.. it reflects..

"why do we think bad things about others or why do we have bad images about others?
 when we meet someone we are getting angry or irritated or upset with them. If we paint them bad it is easy on our conscience to justify all those emotions. if we accept that they are allright then we have to take responsibility for those emotions and think that I may be wrong which is hard. "
-Shibani from Bramha kumaris
But my mind keeps saying what if  they ARE bad.
I accept that our perception of a person or the world can be totally off. Ok I accept my perception of the world and a lot of people IS totally off. preconcieved notions and patterns have coloured my judgement and I see the world thru the same old distored lens. I agree.
but I am afraid to let go... they( the notions and patterns) have served me for all these years.. I can feel it I m not all that ready to let go. I can feel resistance to letting go.
all that gyan - markings on glass and all...Inside of me I dont trust that if I change my perception the world will change. I still trust my judgements :D the old ones. I m giving it a go and I am ready to try..but I think I m not ready to let go of the hand rails and jump. Its frustrating.

I m really afraid to think that the other person is NOT BAD and it is all in my mind
what if the person is really bad and because I m thinking it is all in my mind, am I just going into denial ? and then I get cheated hurt etc?
Am I confusing sprituality to stupidity? :D
what they are saying is NOT to go into denial. but going numb and going into denial also looks very much like sprituality. how to know the difference?
Oh well I know the answer to this. Its the same old awareness!

2) No one is asking me to think of everything as good, just question my beliefs and ask why is the person bad, dig deeper. dont analyse but just listen and observe myself.
3) The only person who needs to become good in my mind, (first) is me.. do I trust myself, do I beleive myself, do I like myself. what -ve beliefs do I have about myself? There is no danger is letting go of those is it?
1)Also when some thing is not right and I get a reaction. That is what we are trying to solve... is the bad feelings in me? What is bringing it about? We need to understand and be aware of our reactions and emotions.. and not let this color the judgement.  Is this head over heart? I am getting resistance to this idea. I want to react with my heart - but not with emotions. there is a difference - once emotions are quitened once thoughts are quietened then we can hear the heart.  I feel resistance to letting go of emotions.  I feel that will make me dead...But I m sure I wont miss anxiety, irritation, anger, despair etc etc :D I will miss saddness tho :)
Awareness is good.. understanding is good.. letting go of clouds and patterns is good..
let us atleast stick to that for now..


defensive...

7 June 2012

Trust and patience

Trust and patience
Trust and patience
Trust and patience

Trust myself that I can do it and patience with myself till I do well eventually...
I m actually a quick learner but I am so embarrassed about that learning curve  and so miserable getting thru it.. totally lacking trust too all the time till I perfect it.
Its all right to make mistakes.. we all learn and do well because of them!

I want my first painting to be Mona lisa :) How many things we dont even start because we dont trust ourselves to do it well..

In esoteric stuff and self development...Its really important to trust our experiences...
we know what we felt, we know how good or bad it was....no need to convince anyone else..
Do we trust ourselves when we feel tired? or sick? or call ourselves lazy?
Do we trust our good feelings...I am looking great today.. and then someone says.. ur dress is funny..do u still feel good looking?
I am very bright! some one says are u? what have u achieved.. and ur ballon is burst..do we really trust?
forget others... no one else knows... they have their own filters and issues.. they see what they want to see.. thru their conditioning...how can they see us? we are all blind ... only person we need to trust is ourselves...

Our own ego is always questioning and doubting...thats when we need to have patience and trust in the process... like gardening...we have to plant the seeds and wait :) we cant dig and check everyday to see if the seeds have sprouted or not?

Awareness for example.. It starts as a spritual exersice but ego soon takes it over and makes it into a competition/Goal oriented/Task.. I m always in my own world, are those people more aware than me, are they better? Am I really aware or not.. oh god I dont even know to be aware! What are the benefits I have got out of it so far? is it worth while and so on :)
All that is not necessary...just intend to be aware and I will know how to be aware.. trust myself to know that and have patience till it happens... no goals.. no violence no measuring...and no "will power" - with using will power there is always resistence and violence.. and the goal of awareness is to understand why this resistance is there.. not to plough thru it.. gentle and kind with ourselves first.. then to others...