my heart goes mmm.. contd

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moss - I love green velvette moss
terrariums- do u know they are called fairy gardens? :)
aquariums
huge glass bottles ( I mean huge.. like more than foot tall) to make terrariums and aquariums ( without fish tho)
colored bottles - even normal wine bottles I like, should grow plants in them.. never succeded in growing plants in them tho.
bonsai
miniature doll houses
tiny paintings
very detailed tiny carvings( In Japanese are called netsuke, not really netsuke are beads but they are  tiny and intricately carved )
sketch books, scrap books ( Vijju auntie's home science scrap book was my favourite book ever)

Sooooooo Excited

How to see Faeries!! Its cutest lil( not too lil) book with flaps and books inside books and things that pop out and slide out and everything! yeah yeah Its a kids book! So?! love it anyway, I want to make a book like this, those guys have had so much fun making this book!

Sun Over Mountain!!! Ah! This is such a lovely book, I havent seen any other book which told how exactly to delve into the subconscious ( without drugs and stuff that is :P)  Jessa Macbeth is awesome. She was awesome in Fairy Oracle cards and here too!
All these books compliment each other so perfectly, Sun over mountain wants me to draw but focus is on getting in touch with subconscious. Drawing with right side of the brain! wants me to get in touch with subconscious or the right side of the brain but focus is on drawing :) :) :)
And u need all this to see fairies :) :P :)
I found some beautiful fairy statues to compliment all this in charity shops..

Yupieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Amazing books!!! :D
World is a beautiful place! :)  the most beautiful place in the world is right inside our head!!! wow! The only danger is you may want to stay there and not get out!

And Oh!Oh, I also got my sketch book! Moleskin sketch book for sketching stuff! :D  hmm Ill become Monet or Van Gough soon! :P ;)

Feels like Santa was here ;-)

are thoughts like ice bergs?

are thoughts like ice bergs? like they have 1/3 up and 2/3 below our conscious level?

reading Secret- which BTW is quite a  nice book, dono why it has such a bad name. anyway, it says that your feelings are indicators of what kind of thoughts u are thinking.
I noticed that some thoughts seem innocent or very short at conscious level but they have a huge emotional charge to them. that means there is lot more to that thought than what comes to mind, large part of that thought is below surface.
noticing thoughts and feelings is not that straightforward, mind!

how to actually get to the hidden part of thoughts?

Thoughts and feelings are not 1:1 and its not an easy mapping as these books lead us to believe. Thoughts dont always generate feelings, the same thought sometimes brings about feelings and sometimes not. Feelings color thoughts. If I m feeling irritated, and  I think of one non irritating person I may paint them with irritation too.. like that.
The Game: That playboy guide book, actually has a technique. The guy asks these women to imagine a time when they were very happy, Or about an ideal situation. women imagine it and start feeling good. but they attribute these good feelings to the guy who asked the question! and get hooked! serious! this was an NLP technique.
Controlling feelings is not hard, understanding them is. Its the next level of the game.
Secret is a good book, it talks of Secret shifters, music or good memory or a walk or something, which can shift ur mood instantly. once u get into the habit u may be able to shift moods without the actual shifter. It is good. but...I do want to understand and go into why the bad feelings came up in the first place. is it worth it?
actually when I feel bad now, the first reaction is dilemma, should I shift to good mood or should I try to understand this! :)

auto drawing

what is subconscious?
Is it me? it does not usually feel like me..
when I let my subconscious do a drawing, I dont say I drew it, say, it came out like that.
I dont even know where the drawing is going to go, which color will be picked up next, its all as if someone is doing it thru me.
The techniques used are unique- I wouldnt usually paint with my fingers! but my subconscious did!
It made two paintings when I wanted to draw hero, one in oil pastels and one with paint. both eerily similar ( both like poppy flower!!)  I realise this only when I look at it later on :)
I wouldnt massage myself with my knuckles, my subconscious did ! :)
dear god! we are such interesting machines and we have so so many features! we have to explore.
it is as if channeling - exactly like when u do a seance.
it feels like I m letting something inside me show itself.. it has a life of its own..

somethings in our lives are just links, they come in so that they can point us to something else..
there may sometimes be a chain of links to get us from A to B. Links or Steps. life works in mysterious ways :) nothing is accidental
when u look for somethng u need to have patience and trust... when u are holding a link dont dismiss it

sometimes for us the journey is more important or as important as the destination.
sometimes we want to take a longer route, the not obvious route and it is ok.
Have fun going when the journey is anyway long, what say? :)

wrt reading Sun over mountain and trying creative visualisation instead of arhatic meditations which may be quicker way to .. u know what :P

When I started worrying and fretting about things -
Gyan-"This will not matter at all in the big scheme of things!"
How many of our worries will disappear if we think - will this matter in 10 years.. Or even in a week? most of the things we worry about wont even matter tomorrow!

Gyan in uncanny, I m grateful for the grace!