Ondonde..

..muchita maatu. Sakkat hot maga only, I am crazy about Sandalwood songs now. Jangli shivlingu and haale patre and everything. Blew me away. Thanks to Hindi FM, which sucks. I was forced to check whats on Kannada channels and surprise! surprise! Ondondee... Nadedaduva kamanabillu.... kaddalu mansaanna....Super!! it was top 8 at 8 dance numbers!! Awesome or what! :-)

Jinke mari na and ninidale - yella kelidde but hucchu hidirililla , Yelladdakku time barbekittu ansatte! :-) Mother tongue songs andre vanthara special ansatte alva, yeshte hadu kelidru hale kannada hadashtu romatic yavudu ansodilla. Uk nalli naavu 2-3 dina full one after other kannada songs hadkonde idvi. naanu parvagilla, sumaaru haale hadu gottu nangu. Nan ammage gotilla! For that matter, nan mother tongue konkani alva but still kannada language keldire onthara preeti, delhi li yeladru kannada kelsidre yeshut khushi agatte, but Konkani kelidre ashtakaste. actually maneyorna bittu bere yar hatranu konkani matadakke aagode illa. anyway Ee kannada craze is not very good news for marital life I must say :-) pateince runs thin at my home and bombardment of kannada numbers not helping, but Annavaru heliddare- yaare kugadali Hure horadali.. ;-)

Chintu died :-( Poor soul. Having pets is such a heart break. :-( In all his short life of 2 months, hes lived just one fun week, With coco. He was coco's tail,follower, chamcha :-) and then he even started learning things from the cat, climbing out of the house through the window! Clever lil fellow observed everything keenly and learnt. Id thought he had made it when he was with coco. :-( Guess he was damaged more than we cud guess or even the doctor cud guess. He never got over the dysentery, I think his liver was gone. He smelt like it towards the end. God bless him, Hope he gets a better life next time around :(

Pranic Healing

I did pranic healing for dear Chintu, my mums pup. and it worked. I am happy I was able to give at-least some comfort to that troubled soul. I am sad that I couldn't do pranic healing again. It is very strenuous, I couldn't muster up enough will power to do it twice a day. requires a lot of concentration and so strained me , I am a bit guilty about that.

Lot of -ve energy in that poor thing, my left hand tingled for almost half hour after trying to heal him, Hes been suffering all 3 months since he is born. :( Its really sad. He was really happy and active when he was hear, he'd learnt to get out of the house through the window by observing the cat! Sneaky lil thing :D . Sweaty pie, hope he gets well soon.

I am encouraged to take up Pranic healing further, next month Ill take up the advanced healing course. I can provide relief to people, I should. It is really handy with pets and children. It is effective, minor grouse is that they have courses one course which has $$ in the name! SO NOT SPRITUAL :) but Ive these things are helpful , so Im keeping all these misgivings aside and joinin that course :)

Death

Death!! how we fear death! the all time fav boon of all demons is "I want to conquer death!" BTW demons etc came into picture cause of this nice blog "http://ammastales.com/", Mythological stories, just like how Dr Bappa would have told us. Talking of Dr Bappa, His death I think affected me most on the whole, I took upon myself some kind of guilt that I didnt do anything for him, more specifically I didnt get anything for him from my first salary and he just died. :-( . Burden of that is heavy :( Anyway, thats not what I had in mind when i wanted to talk about death.

If u look at the world objectively, from a scientific perspective, like I do all the time :-> :->...

Why do we die? What all can die? What does it mean when u say something died?

There are two types of death - Death by breaking- this happens to non living things as well as living ones. when something in machine goes so wrong that it can no longer function. This can happen by accident.

Another death is death by Aging or by wear and tear. You can say that this also happens to living as well as non living. but there is a difference. Animals( and all living things) have an inbuilt mechanism to fix wear and tear. We are self repairing machines. We have the capability to fix ourselves, to regenerate ourselves but in-spite of that.. we still age. There is a clock going on inside of living beings which makes people age and die. ( Simply called as "Life cycle" :D )

Dont u see? the Wear and Tear and Aging is by design!!!! Sneaky creator of ours, has installed tiny little time bombs in us meant to go off after certain time so that we inevitably die. :-(

I went about thinking why? why would he ( ;-) god is man, if he was a woman the world would have been a nicer place) want us to die? Couldn't he stop at childhood, youth - stop.?

This death by design is more apparent in some species- The annual plants used to annoy me most, I plant them in June, they flower in august, they dry up and die in December!!! Next June the seeds grow back again, I am happy, but there are 1000;s of plantlings. Out of the thousand plantlings, how many survive? 10? 20?

Creator is using Death as integral part of his design at every stage of life -

To select out the best of the lot, that death is not by aging BTW, but it is still by design. The number of offspring in any species is always much much more than required. designed for very high infant mortality. survival of the fittest.

He uses death to weed out things which have stayed for long enough also, even if you are good, u survived, u still have a dead line, u have to go and make way for new.

"Change" is the key word looks like, Death( and Birth by corollary ) is designed to promote evolution, if all species only died accidentally, they would reproduce far far less. So? They would be less capable to adapt to changes in the environment no? now u have animal life cycles ranging from 2 years to say 150 ( tortoise) So if the environment gradually changed over a period of thousand years, enough variety is produced in the offspring in mean time and natural selection has scope in the 10-12 generations which have gone by, to build a species which is more adapted to the new changes.

With out death, Life on earth would probably have been wiped out by now?

Death and birth is more adaptive model for a volatile ecosystem. In a planet where nothing changes, life probably lives for ever and reproduces by choice.

If one day we device a way to not die, we replace all parts of our selves , what do u think will be the consequence? one for sure we wont reproduce anymore. How long do u think one would like to continue living if we could live for ever? initially people would get tired and bored pretty soon say 200 years or so, then once people get used to the idea.. they would live for ever. No death. Evolution and adaptation would happen then at the higher level and not at the genetic level.

Now genes live for ever, the organism dies, the species morphs.

if we( humans) became immortal, organism would live forever, organism itself would morph, in effect evolution would still happen. species may also evolve, different people may choose different ways of living for ever. and Genes? Organism would control the genes rather than vice versa.

we would have so much control on the whole process that we could then do away with the time bombs and life cycles..

There are different ways of looking at death too, the individual cells in our body are dieing all the time, we dont consider ourselves dead until the whole unit stops working right? similarly may be we can consider the whole species as the organism and the individual plant for ex as a cell. so unless the plant species gets extinct, you can say the organism lives?

if you consider earth as an organism and we - each species as a cell? then until life is there on earth, earth is living. the different species are like different cells in the body, the extinction of a species does not matter as long as earth works..

Hmmm, God has designed death, he has also designed the fear of death, It is inevitable, but u fight it all your life. .. Its a game for him. God - Definitely male! ;-)

Note: I donot believe in a creator per say, but it is very convenient concept to use to understand how the world developed. Mind accepts and understands things easily when I say creator made it like that, than if I say, it happened like this out of chance.

cribbing

BTW I am upset today, Ive got a bad cold and the usual JNI techniques dont seem to cure it. thats why i am sitting up at 3 in the morning writing this darn blog. I am feelin a bit low too, so the pouring nose may very well turn into pouring eyes anytime soon. Why? Its the same old grouse - i haven't learned to live in this world, I haven't learnt to deal with people, If I look back on my life how many close friends have I? Its all my fault type of thing. My fault being I firmly believe I shouldnt "try", trying is somehow wrong. Thinking - yeah thinking is wrong too. I shouldnt think and act. Whole load of nonsense in my head. All friends I have had till now have become my frineds, I didnt "try" to make friends with anyone. I didnt "try" to get close to anyone. I dont "try" to impress my boss, I dont "think" about how to impress my boss, I dont even "think" about how to go about my life. I really have a thing against thinking :( yeah I get the word now MENTAL BLOCK . Its really silly. I hvent thought and decided about one darn thing in my life, when it comes to thinking I just go with what I feel or with the flow. Somewhere along the line Ive made up my mind that if I think and decide I wont be happy with it. That is not allowing me to sit and think about myself. I mean yeah i can think about how monkeys evolved into man and what role genetics play in ones behaviour and all that crap, but when it comes to thinking about what I need to do, I refuse. god save me!

wondering if playing strategy games like chess and othello will help? they will force me to think about what the next move from the other person will be, Will it loosen up these blocks?

tintin

what I want to write about has changed. I No longer have these burning ideas which I want to put down some place. I am inclined to write more like a diary of sorts, I am upset today, I am happy today kind of posts. So here I go... I have stopped reading interesting books these days, I am hooked on to tin tin tho since a few weeks. I love it. The Tintin companion book its just amazing so is Herge. I felt sad tho, that Tintin brought on his nervous breakdown. Tintin is such wonderful peace of work, I like to think, Herge loved to work on Tintin and that he enjoyed everybit of it.The fact is writing Tintin was very hard work. It put a lot of pressure on Herge.He had to comeout with something regularly. Sometimes he even broke into rashes due to all the stress :(. And twice in his life, he abandoned tintin to go off into country side and take a break. Tintin really exhausted him. Now I understand why Bill Waterson stopped writing Calvin and Hobbes. So its not just IT folks, even when the work is creative, even tho you do really love ur work - like Herge It can still get to you.