Obama supports gay marriage

Pleasantly surprised and happy about this, still wondering what could be the political motivations behind this cant help feeling warm and fuzzy and nice about the man.good man? :) bold move!
Equal rights and all is great, no body should stop gay marriage.
but why do they want to get married so bad! :-P
The world is moving forward at this pace, half the people dont get married at all...its kinda so irrelevant these days.. married or not...
why care at all about being main stream and get "married"?

associative anger

Observing myself - I notice anger and irritation towards astrology, gold, sarees, vegetarianism. Unfair. Anger, fair or unfair is not necessary for me at this stage in my life.. but easier to get rid of unfair anger I hope.
Its  misdirected anger.
I dont actually hate astrology. I personally know that moon phases affect us, may not be our fate but our moods. I know full moon makes most people restless, brings up pains, body aches, migranes..
so astrology - no hate.. planets can affect us. but  I hate the way people use it or rather misuse it. I hate it that people run to astrologer to ask for solutions and they follow what the astrologer asks them to do with out understanding why or what of it. I like people using intelligence and thinking.I hate the blind following..
I shouldnt hate gold, its a poor blameless metal, what i really hate is the peoples greed and need for it. I hate the way women, especially, place so much importance on it, that makes them so superficial and silly.
I shouldnt hate sarees its a sexy dress after all.
I hate the way people seem to dietyfy sarees, its apparently divine dress- most decent and such crap. sorry, blind people!! It looks ugly on women who put out their tummies on display, It looks ugly on clumsy women who wear it 4 inches off the ground at the back, It looks great on Sushimata sen Priyanka cropra and Sonai gandhi :-) only :-P( and Offcourse on all those women who read this blog( u are all beautiful!) :P and Also on all those men's wives/girlfriends/partners who read this blog :P)
Also I hate the fact that Indians stick on to old traditions blindly like a saree which was probably invented before we learnt to stitch but once we learnt to stitch some 4000 years ago we should have moved on. no?It not sarees fault that people didnt move on to more efficient dresses no? so  I shouldnt hate the blameless saree.
Vegetarianism - similarly long and short of it, if Bramhins are vegetarian and they discriminated and put down other people for thousands of years, It makes those people bad, it does not make being vegetarian bad.
If kids who were vegetarian were sissy, it does not make vegetarianism bad, It was probably their over protective parents. Its a childhood belief which I should let go? Dont I have friends now who are vegetarian and not sissy?I also actually dont hate western vegeterian people do I?
 After venting about vegetarians on my blog, my whole attitude changed! surprisingly! I think I realised I hated because of us and them syndrome and let that go... There is a Jain guy who is a very staunch veggie...When someone taunted him I heard myself saying poor thing, let atleast some people in this world be noble and I actually meant it :) proud of myself!

I walk alone

The most surprising part is how natural it feels. holidaying alone I thought would be awakward but it wasn't. So natural.. so normal. I realise I have done it many many times but havent named it as such thats all.. may all those 2 day train journeys in India - If u enjoyed yourself on those I think u can count on enjoying urself alone anywhere :) and those official trips.
Free, thats the first thing I felt and peace. and Yupieee!I did it kinda feeling :-) as if its a big deal! but may be it is :-) ..but there is a slight fear that I m turning(?!?:P) into this anti social loner, real fear is that I m liking it :-)
Hah! I want to hug the place...bubbles bursting in my heart!:-) I love the sea! I think I also love the fact that I did this :) I want to dissolve into the sea and sink into the sand...
funny I feel like I am getting away from a close friend when I leave this place.. I linger on and on and on on the beach.. its getting cold and hungry.. ah!but I love this! I dont want to go..
I go to the waves to wash my shoes and then leave but stay on and then back on the sand just 5 more minutes.. ntill the birds stop singing.. may be visit all those silly sand things people have done one mroe time before I leave..
the softest sand and the gentle waves..crystal clear water...the fading light..I want to roll in the sand and rub my back in sand like a doggy but then I guess I have not gone that crazy yet.. I refrain sadly..
I finally get up and leave.. my stomach is very persuasive ..

BTW what do u do with beauty? seeing it is not enough, photographing it..  I get this Arrgh! I want to ..! feeling when I see and feel beauty! some how I want to immerse into it? blend into it, hug it,  dip into it and get it all over me, through me.....

Soul Mates

Caught you attention now ! Din I? :D
hehe!
yeah Soul Mates!
The unexplained affinity,warmth,tenderness, peace, the gentle pull, feel of  coming home when u are with a person...or unbearable attraction and passion, heady feeling, something u cannot shake off no matter what...like being sucked in a vortex.. all at the first glance! Soul mate? :)
A more politically correct or rather less alarming term is being used these days "soul connected" because u can feel this connections with anyone - parents, brothers, sisters,friends - u can have a strong connection but have no romantic interest, u may have strong connection and romantic interest but  u may be already commited ;-) so soul connected ;-)
How does it all fall into place Mystically..
God made all souls in pairs, separated them( I should have said "us" LOL!obviously I dont buy this :) and threw them to earth...we are all basically halfs of a whole and must keep searching and find that one person who completes us! This is the hollywood version of the story.
Another theory is that soul mates are souls with whom u have spent many lifes, who are ur lovers across life times.. but There can be multiple soul mates.. souls dont have gender nor do they have any taboo... these souls have had both romantic and non romantic relationship with u in the past lives.. but close relationships.. so u feel the affinity and closeness with them... you know each other too well...for too long...
Another theory is that if you from the same soul group - imagine there is big higher soul which splits into multiple souls which in turn split and so on.. like branches of a tree.. if u are 2 branches shot out of same trunk u are soul mates..u are literally connected via the trunk..

Master Co from pranic healing had an interesting take on the soul mates funda.. according to him there are two kinds of soul mates, One kind is the regular soul mate  with whom u have had romantic relationships in the past life, who are kind of connected to you in the soul hierarchy and who compliment you, When u see these people ur heart will go mmmmmmm ...
Another type are those that have lessons for you!! :D you will be intensely attracted to people who will teach u lessons in life :-) that means that life with these "soul mates" will definitely be challenging. Suppose ur soul had a purpose that it will learn anger management in this life time. These soul mates will do exactly that, push ur anger buttons and push u to the limits so that u learn!!. so beware of love at first sight ;-) Soul mates can also be people with whom u have unfinished business ( usually actually always unpleasant)  The longer the unfinished business lasts the closer the souls are bought to sort out their issues and messes.. If two people were part of a feud in one life time and developed a lot of hatred with each other and died like that, next life they are probably brought together as friends so that they de-solve the hatred and move on, but instead if they just build on hate, then they are brought together as husband wife or parent child, if u still dont mend ur business - conjoined twins :D So if u dont like someone, better to not have any hatred/anger towards them if not they will return as soul-mates :D

Techniques

1) Glass wall technique... may be this was Dream gyan or may be I read it somewhere in a slightly different way (NLP stuff?) and it was summarised like this... Its a nice way to remember that all the worlds drama is happening inside our head and actual reality is quite fine!..I saw this more as a cartoon video than in words...

I was angry and upset with someone ...The  person was in front of me, I drew big bold crosses on him with a dark red felt pen... then a line connecting  this to my brain and a drew some mess there.... means - this person made my head mess up.
 Then I moved to the side a bit, I saw that all this scribbling and crosses were on a  glass wall in front of me and not on that person at all...that person was fine! I quickly erased off the crosses and then the line and then the mess in my head!! I felt great after this!? no anger! cool or what? :)

2) Using the energy from the emotions technique - may be this helps me disassociate with my emotions ...atleast it helps dissipate them..I dono where this came from.. may be I read this somewhere as well?! May be Louise hay?  .. one of those free books on my Kindle I think . Its similar to some exercises and that book by a psychologist has similar meditations...
When we feel intense emotions like sadness or pain or anger, we can use the strength of those emotions to do something else constructive..Sometimes I remember to do this when I feel strong emotions.
Sometimes feel intensely sad but I dono why, I observe the pain... I try to feel that pain as physical sensation rather than emotion then I imagine(?) that it is actually just energy and then turn it into light(proper flash light) and shine it inside my head - hopefully I will be able to see what it is that is causing the pain.. till today I haven't seen any reason for the pain :) but the sadness dissipates.. I am thinking it is working slowly may be once I shine enough light it will show me the actual reason?
If I know the reason then even better, for example I feel really sad remembering my cats and I cant seem to get over it.. turn the saddness into love( isnt it actually love in the first place?) then send it out from my heart to my cats, to all cats or to just all people connected to me ...I feel better. I imagine proper connections like bright wires of light going out of my heart taking love in them
May be I feel lonely - then I use the sadness to break the walls I have built around my heart so that I can reach out to people ... etc..etc ... :)  I am very creative with the imagination, I sometimes imagine that energy as a flood breaking the walls of a dam, or Like a fist punching off a brick wall.. I imagine the flash light shining in the deep mines/tunnels in my brain looking for stuff which I may have repressed... I imagine myself turning and looking at the pain and asking who are you...why are u making me sad..
yeah all this is too personal but what the heck, this blog is for personal purpose anyway.

I can get tired of beauty but I think the appeal of cuteness is more sustained

swans are beautiful and ducks are cute, I got bored of swans but I still find ducks cute! 

I think its the same with people,most people who I thought looked beautiful started looking dull after a while. ( all girls tho :-D, good looking guys remain good looking :D)

can sounds be cute and beautiful or is it just images?

we do say  a beautiful voice and that doesnot get tiring and cute? when people make cute noises that is definitely annoying :D hehe but thats not realy cute voice is it? itis noise made when people think something else is cute :D

prosthetics

along the same lines.. is the day far away when prosthetics become so good that people will start going in for artifical legs over real legs?
motorised legs with different type fittings - say wheels for smooth surfaces, spikes,  opposable thumb in the foot , extensible hand, u can stretch it long to reach the door or that glass on table on the far side of the bed ?.
Already read reports that golfers get lasik done to normal eyes to improve their performace..
its just a matter of cost isnt it?
If para olympics become as porpular as F1 racing,
if the focus starts shifting from effort to technology.. if companies start competing at entertainment level . I feel this is somewhat politically incorrect, but wont it be great if people put in the same ammount of reaserch into prothetics as into racing cars. and these days showbiz and sport are 2 main things which rake money
Then the day wont be far away when we all become Iron-men. slowly body will fade away,  We will just be pure brains?! :-) Then once we will start augmenting our brains with flash drives and more processing power and then.. even the organic brain will disappear..
Will the organic carbon man remain at all? Isnt that also some kind of evolution?
There are 1000s on movies on this theme I think.

rebel eh? :)

I m putting up picture on skpe for office use. I put up a nice picutre of me in a formal suite.
Then I reaslied everyone else has put up some vague pictures - cartoons animals etc. No one has put their own pic.I m so embarrassed and want to change, It feels like I m silly egotists  who has put up her own pic :D
I think confirmist side is very strong in most of us. me too, tho slightly less than most.
only very weird characters like left wingers or bums are true rebels I think.
I m more confirmist in UK than in India. :) see them as more peers? so when I rebel in India it is not really rebelign at all?
Anyway after this realisation I have let that picture stay...